Ayla's Quest (Paperback) | Released: 27 Aug 2015

Until I set out on my guided journey, I had worked various jobs and spent three years as a student in two Universities. Years earlier I had expressed the wish to know as much as possible while on this planet. I had assumed that I would glean this knowledge from books, teachers, videos and movies. Assumptions, projections into the future while not knowing if they would or would not materialize, became one of the mental configurations I had to let go of. Why did I not embark on my journey earlier? I did not volunteer for this quest. When I became aware of the corruption that influenced major decisions in government (I worked as an editor on geological reports at the time), decisions that were made contrary to the people's collective well-being, it prompted me to throw in the societal towel. Nobody could convince me to continue to contribute my gifts and abilities to a system that benefited a handful of misguided people. Without a goal or purpose other than my intent to withdraw myself from the collective insanity, I figured I would die shortly. There was nobody to care for or support me! Little by little, I came to understand how to fight for and regain my freedom from the matrix, and guide others who were pointed out to me. Rather than spending time in ashrams, yoga, meditation or spiritual centers, I hoofed it alone through nature and the cities of Europe as well as the United States with direct communications from my Higher Self and other aspects of Self in the timeless zones. Being my own (spiritual) home, clearly indicated in my natal astrological Signature that I chose for this incarnation, over time it mattered not if I rested my head on a rock, in a jail cell or in a castle. My mother's controlling behavior pattern inspired me to observe others as to discover that there are instigators who apply invisible, electronic means of controlling the population, such as putting people in a trance to make them do things they normally would not consider doing. Hardly capable of remembering or even understanding what it is they are doing in a dream-induced state, it is impossible for the controlled humans to even take responsibility for their own actions, a necessity on the road to Freedom! With my mother as a role model, initially I adopted most of her pattern. It became the reason for me to tackle and eliminate that pattern to become the true individual I longed to BE. My choice of labeling those who tried to derail me, the Simultaneous Spirit Suppressors, is based on their hive-mind behavior. That type of behavior has been taken on by many different types of simultaneous spirit incarnations, including such individuals as those who suffer from Asperger's syndrome, or different types of so-called autism, etc. or anyone who is a habitual TV watcher. I used the SSS delineation to differentiate the sequential incarnation from the simultaneous incarnation. The SSS identification is not intended to be an 'all-inclusive' label, or to pertain to behavior patterns as displayed by less mature simultaneous incarnations. For me, the only way to be able to perceive what is really going on in the world is through doing inner work, sweep out the vibrational cobwebs or veils to build up inner strength. Progressively, when my inner battle between the mind and the spirit subsided into a surrender to my Higher Self, I perceived the world differently. Knowledge is earned and wisdom is learned. Applying that knowledge in many situations has shown me many new insights. After my surrender in 1991, with John, a more Advanced aspect of my Higher Self, taking over the reins, I lived according to the natural laws as described in The Handbook for a New Paradigm.