Keep on Going (Paperback) | Released: 28 Jul 2020

This is like the feeling you get when weight is lifted off your shoulders . I feel like my entire life I have been walking around with a bookbag full of bricks on my shoulders . That is what it felt like holding on to all I am releasing throughout this book . Two years ago, I was depressed going through college and a breakup and I could not find peace. I was working and going to school in the same facility . I felt like I was imprisoned . My sister said sissy try writing about it, that is what I do . I took her advise and started writing that night . I cried and I cried letting go of so much through writing . My sister and I would sit on the back porch over wine and I would read my journals to her and she said you should write a book . A lot of people can relate to all you have been through and I believe you can help a lot of people . That night I sent her a few titles I thought of and she said no, I think you should name it Keep On Going . The process may be slow but faith keeps you going. I began researching the difference between self-publishing and having a publisher . I did not know of anyone who has written a book and did not have resources, so I did not know which routes to take . This caused me to procrastinate on releasing my book . I lost my sister suddenly May 23rd, 2020 and God connected me with my mother friend who has a publishing company and made this all possible . Throughout this book I talk about most things I have been through that made me who I am . I talk about my faith and what it cost me . I vent about my family, friends, and failed relationships . I compare my fraternal and maternal family and talk about how the conjunction of the two was mentally confusing and draining to me . One side being structured, family oriented and loyal . The other side being dysfunctional, malicious, and envious made me half of each and I talk about how I balanced the two, how I grew and prayed myself into the woman I am today. Who I am today is not a reflection of my family . I am who my mother raised me to be . I am everything they said she would not be . I had professional advisors treat me like I had a mental illness . I had teachers tell me I am a slow learner and I am just not as intelligent as the other children . I am thankful for the cruel encouragement; it has truly inspired me . I struggle with communicating yes, I may ignore you yes, but I am observant, and highly intelligent . Cosmetology school was a goal of mine since I was a child and while trying to complete the program my world around me was falling apart, I talk about the devil trying to work and how my faith would not allow his work to stop me . I vent about my sister passing and how much it hurt me . I share my obsession with my nephews and the bond my sister and I shared with my youngest nephew . Her and I were especially excited about her pregnancy because this pregnancy I was older and mature and was able to be coherent and a lot more involved . When she birthed my youngest nephew, it was just her and I . Her entire pregnancy she told everyone she did not sign up to be pregnant and she was only carrying the baby for me . His father asked her to abort him and my sister being vulnerable she was going to but I had an abortion at 19 for that same reason and I could not allow her to make the same mistake as me . I promised her she would never have to raise him alone, I promised to be there for him every step of the way and I am doing just that . I will never have it any other way . I thank you so much for purchasing my book and being interested in my story. I am praying for your growth and I hope this book inspires you to accomplish all of dreams..